Sometimes we get overwhelmed by lower impulses of our available energies.

Today, I woke up tired, angry and frustrated at a million things that should be right but are not and problems that I am unable to tackle and extricate myself from, at least not overnight. The bubbling over of anger seeks outlet and I looked around only to find more irritation and agitation brewing. I realized that nothing out there can make the inside of me comforted. So, inwards it is – looking inside my being and mind for solutions.

Anger is primarily associated with Mars. Mars is currently in Cancer so we are likely to take things more personally and feel more frustrated wounded or vulnerable. Mars in Cancer is like a knife poking at the softest parts of us. It is its sign of fall so whereas in Capricorn it can be driven outward and upward towards definitive achievements, in Cancer it is effectively impotent in this sense. Its nature here is the opposite of what we typically seek but decidedly more in tune with what we really need.

Mercury is typically a great mediator or assistive conduit for Mars energy and luckily Mercury does prevail in terms of strength to express right now in Gemini.

So I turned to Mercury reflected in my mind, not for answers because there is no real answer to things that currently bother me. I turned to my mind for ideas and potential solutions for alleviating these sensations.

And there, inside the chronicles of my mind  I suddenly remembered something i read a long time ago. The first real book I read when I was 8 years old!

This is the essence of Mars when you peel off everything else that you attach to it and that you perhaps attach yourself to along the path:

“He was mastered by the sheer surging of life, the tidal wave of being, the perfect joy of each separate muscle, joint, and sinew in that it was everything that was not death, that it was aglow and rampant, expressing itself in movement, flying exultantly under the stars.”

― Jack London, The Call of the Wild

Mars…the spark of life.

Image by Stephen Leonardi

Maybe I cannot do much right now of anything i wish i could. And maybe it has to hurt. But underneath these layers of compounded frustrations and pain lies the original force. The one that brought us into the world and the one that keeps us moving despite any and all challenges. The impulse to resist inertia, to move, to get going and to extricate ourselves from any narrow passage and any trap.

The journey through Cancer is a journey inward. A clearing of the path towards the deep center where we can root ourselves in our beingness. Where the only expectation is to find time to dig deep, then regroup and recover. Without this we cannot effectively handle anything outside. We have to be ok first. Once rooted in and connected to a nuorishing source within, we can reach out with courage.

Wishing you courage whatever you are facing in life. May you find comfort and strength to keep pushing through, tackling the thorns in the thicket of life one by one.

Sending love.